I finally arrived at this point of my life where I am not afraid to be seen and heard. The guilt and shame that I felt towards myself are gone. Whether those feelings were justified or not, they still managed to poison all my actions and my life. I deprived myself from doing things that I found meaningful, just because I was deluded into thinking I am not worthy of it. Who deluded me? Not a single person, not a single event, not by choice… This is how we all come about into this world. We are born pure and full of light, but this conditioned realm with all those unhealed traumas and unnecessary sufferings leave stains on our real nature, that is just purity and innocence.

I spent many years trying to figure out what is wrong with me, what went so wrong that I feel as if I do not deserve to be part of anything good. What I did to find out?

• Started to learn about Indian philosophy at the age of 13
• Started to read self-help books at the age of 14
• Moved away from my parents to another country at the age of 14
• Studied for six years and became a clinical psychologist
• Abandoned psychology and became a Chinese Martial Art instructor
• Open my spiritual center, where I taught I-Li-Quan, Qigong, Yoga and Meditation
• Travelled across Thailand and spent months in Thai forest monasteries
• Abandoned lay life and became a Buddhist nun in Taiwan
• Spent endless days and nights contemplating

And eventually I did find out all the answers to my questions. There is nothing wrong with me and nothing out of ordinary happened to me. I do deserve all the great things in the world, which are joy of being, love, care and respect. I accepted delusional ideas as true, like many others do. I believed, even though I was never told so directly, that I do not deserve to be loved and cherished. I believed that I deserve to be ignored, I am not worthy of being heard and seen. Children rarely learn from what is said, they learn by actions.

The unique combination of my experience led me to my realization, that I now want to share with everyone.

From Body and Mind practices, like QiGong and Yoga, I learned a lot about how we store our emotions and feelings in the body.

My psychological background provided me with a great insight into human psyche and the contemporary methods of understanding it.

My Buddhist monastic experience uprooted my human-limited ways of perceiving and explaining reality. The deep stages of meditation allowed my mind and body to stop worrying, which provided the base for deeper insight into the reality of this human realm.

And here I am now, presenting my creation to the world. It is nothing new, but yet unique.